One of the boys

Yup. That's what they call me here sometimes, being the only girl in the team. Well, it has it's advantages and disadvantages. Somehow I feel like the youngest in the family - pampered and well taken cared of (heheh...) But I think I just could not escape their "pang-aasar" most of the time. And sometimes I just couldn't relate. It's as if they're speaking another language (not French for sure. hehe) when they start talking about things that I think only men could understand. So there, I'm totally out of place. But that's okay, sooner or later I guess I'll get some hint.

I'm also getting used to taking afternoon breaks with my big brothers. Fiorgellato, Mister Donut, bananaque from Jollijeep, squidballs, peanuts and sweet corns - name it, and we've tried it. I've just learned to eat squid balls, chicken balls and quail eggs right there at the sidewalk. It's not that I don't eat those...in fact, I'm craving for those kind of food sometimes. It's just that probably I get used to eating them inside the pantry. But then I realized it's really more fun to eat them when you're right there beside the cart. Softdrinks are also easily accessible from the bicycle store nearby when we feel we're already choking. (haha!)

Oh well, I think this is how it's gonna be until they hire another girl for our team. Somehow I'm getting used to it. Besides, I guess have no choice. We're stuck with each other. hehehe...just kidding! (",)

Recharged and Refreshed!

Though I was able to go to Church last Sunday, I still felt there’s something lacking. Perhaps it’s because I wasn’t able to attend the whole service. I was the teacher at the Kid’s Sunday School for the 7:30 a.m. service and I was suppose to sing at the 10 a.m service. Well, I did sing but then after the Praise and Worship, I was told that there was no teacher for the Kid’s Sunday School. It should have been Sarah but for some reason, she wasn’t able to come. So there, I was the teacher again. It was actually okay for me, but then I also wished I was able to hear the preaching.

I was able to take advantage of the special holiday to take some rest but then when I went to work this morning, I don’t know why I felt like I was not in the condition to work. I was looking at my things-to-do list and attempted to start on the priority tasks. As time went on, I noticed I was not accomplishing much for the day. I was able to ask the developers some of my questions for the beta test preparation but most of the time I was just staring at the thick reference documents (Acceptance Test Plans and Beta Test Plans) on my desk.

Since I felt I wasn’t working effectively anymore, I told myself I’ll go just home at around 6:30 p.m. But then I thought of passing by the Cathedral of Praise sanctuary, which is located at the ground floor of our building, hoping that they have a service. I really wasn’t sure of their services schedule so I thought that if there wasn’t a service, I’ll just walk straight to Glorietta since I also need to buy something.

As I came near the COP sanctuary, I already saw some people inside. I saw 2 ladies by the entrance and asked if they will be having a service. The girl said that they’ll have a service at 7 p.m. I glanced at my watch and saw that I was 10 minutes earlier. Wow! I was really glad to hear what the girl said.

By the way while I was talking with the girl, I noticed somebody by the front desk calling me. When I looked at who it was, I found out that it’s Paulynne! She’s a good friend of my sister and they’re classmates back in high school. I was in my senior year while Paulynne and my sister were still freshmen in PCU. We’re both glad to see each other. She asked about my sister and we chatted for a while. I told her my office is in the same building. She then gave me her contact number.

As she ushered me inside the sanctuary, I asked if I could borrow her Bible. I apologized for not bringing one. I told her I really didn’t plan to attend but for some reason, my steps led me there. She gladly handed me her Bible and I occuppied a seat near the middle.

I felt a spirit of peace and gladness as we began to sing. The songs really touched my heart and they were like a prayer that I want to say before the Lord. Through the song “It’s all about You”, I was able to tell God that I’m there not for anything or anybody else but just for Him. As we sang “Here I am to Worship”, I just felt like bowing down at His feet as I tell Him that my reason for being there is because of my desire to worship Him and to say that He’s my God. Indeed, there is nothing compared to being in the presence of God, just like what the song “Better is one day” tells – Better is one day in God’s presence than a thousand else where. It was also great to have the opportunity to pray for a sister beside me as we end the Praise and Worship.

Just before the preaching, the choir sang a really beautiful song. It’s the first time I heard that song and I don’t even know the title. But I was touched by the words. Since I don’t have a pen either, I borrowed from a sister beside me just to copy the lyrics of the chorus. It says:

“Ask the Father through Jesus the Son
And it will be done
Rise on wings of faith
In the Name of the Lord.”

It was indeed a great song, sang by a great choir with great voices for no other than our Great God! Truly lovely!

I really regreted though that I didn’t have a pen. I really wished I could take down notes during the preaching. But anyway, I still hoped to get the message and be reminded of it. The preaching was about the people who encountered God and whose lives were then changed. The Pastora gave the following people as examples: (a) the blind beggar who receives his sight (Luke 18:35-43) (b) the lame man healed at the pool (John 5:1-15) (c) the healing of a boy with an evil spirit (Mark 9:14-32) (d) Zechariah being told that he would have a son (Luke 1:5-25). Whew! I thank God for making me remember those scripture texts.

I guess the message really for me is that no matter how big our problems and concerns are, or how impossible our circumstances may be, let us not forget that our God is bigger than any of those. We have a good, loving God who is merciful and who cares a lot for us more than anybody else in this world. And all we have to do is to call on His Name and surrender all our cares before Him. Then be in faith as we hold on to His promises. Keep on praying and seek to be always in His presence. As the Pastora said, “God’s presence makes all the difference”. I definitely agree to that. He’s the only One who can change us...and we will never be the same again.

I just realized that while the Pastora spoke, I felt that everything she’s saying was really for me. It’s just amazing how God used her to speak to me. As I left the COP sanctuary, I went home thanking God for leading me in that place. I know it wasn’t just an accident. It was in His plan for me to be there and be reminded of that wonderful message.

I now overflow with rejoicing and thanksgiving to my God as I am filled with hope that whatever comes my way, He will always be with me.

Indeed, in God’s presence I am recharged and refreshed! (“,)

A Surprise Visit

Since I was taking advantage of the special holiday, I slept ‘til 10 a.m. When I woke up, my mom was already doing the laundry. My dad was in the store and my sister was in Batasan. She texted to inform us that she’s currently in the middle of the rally, soldiers and tanks. Hmm…She really has a very challenging job. But knowing her, I’m sure she can manage. I had a quick breakfast as usual and after resting for a while, I started cleaning the house. I also planned to change the curtains in my room and do some re-arrangements.

I finished cleaning the bathroom and was already cleaning the sala when I heard a tricycle stopped in front of our house. Then I heard somebody calling “Doths!” repeatedly. When I looked from our front window, I was surprised to see Angeline and Ate Lucille (my friends from the Music Ministry) standing outside the gate. I immediately went out to open it for them.

I welcomed them inside the house and apologized for its disorderliness (hehehe…) I told them I was still in the process of cleaning it. They said they don’t mind and told me they just thought of dropping by since they were within the area. They also asked if it’s okay to stay for a while since they don’t have anything to do at their homes (hehe…) I told them it’s perfectly okay and I would really appreciate their company.

After resting for a while, Angeline asked me to accompany her to the nearby mini-mart. She’s craving for some chips. And so, the three of us went to the mini-mart and got a bunch of chips, chocolates and bread. I offered to buy ice cream (rocky-road) since I was craving for some chocolate since last Saturday. (yum, yum!)

We decided to take an early lunch by the time we got home since Angeline didn’t have breakfast. It’s so nice to have friends like them who could eat just whatever is in the kitchen (hehehe…) We had paksiw na isda, fried tilapia and some scrambled eggs for lunch. We opted to eat without using our forks and spoons and it really made us eat a lot. (Uh-oh! They’re not gonna like me for broadcasting our secret. Hehehe…) We had ice cream for dessert (really yummy!). At last, I had some chocolate ice cream (yey!) We’re all so full from our hearty lunch.

After lunch, Angeline asked me for a guitar since she’s also studying to play it by herself. Unfortunately, our guitar is in the office (it’s at Ephil, not at my office. Hehe…) We only have our old electric guitar available. She said that will do. She played some songs from my Blessing songbook. I told them I’ll just take a bath while they were jamming.

We then decided to watch some videos of our previous Church events, like the Christmas Party, Anniversary, Family Day and mini concert. It’s just wonderful to see those memorable events once again. My mom also watched with us as she was having her lunch. They were all teasing me when they saw our dance number last December, saying “Uy, ikaw ba yan? Ang galing ah!” They told me we should perform again. I wonder if that was really a compliment (hehehe…) And maybe I was really on the “hot seat” that time because everytime they’ll see this guy singing, I’ll hear the three of them say “uuuyyy…” and “yiheee…” in unison. I saw the satisfied look on their faces as they were having so much fun teasing me, even my mom. (Wow, thank you very much!)

Oh well…After finishing all those videos, it’s videoke time for us. We’re only able to sing several songs since we felt somewhat sleepy. Maybe it’s time for an afternoon nap. But our attempted afternoon nap turned into an hour or so of chatting (while eating…hehehe…) We even missed to watch the SONA, since we we’re so busy sharing a lot of stories. It was already 4:30 p.m. when we remembered about it. (oops…)

Angeline and Ate Lucille left at around 5 p.m. They thanked me for making them feel so at home. I thanked them too, for keeping me company throughout the day. We surely had a wonderful day.

I continued my interrupted cleaning tasks when they left but I decided to just fix my room on Saturday. I know it would take much time. But anyway, I’m glad that Angeline and Ate Lucille took the time to visit me. It’s really great to have sisters like them, (“,)

Going Places on a Friday Night

At Ephil’s Table Tennis Championship

Last night was a Friday night with the Ephil folks once again. I was glad to be invited by the committee to their Table Tennis Tournament Championship. I was still in our office at around 5:30. I already got a YM message from Angie telling me to go at Ephil. Beng also texted me saying the same thing. I was able to leave at around 6 p.m.

As I entered the Enterworks office going to the Documentation team’s area, Jon Church saw me. I smiled at him and he greeted me as well. I was a little nervous when he started talking to me though I know he’s really a kind man. He asked how I was doing and I told him I’m very much okay. I was a little surprsised when he said, “I hope you’re still here when I come back.” Uh-oh…Apparently, he thought I haven’t resigned yet. So I told him, I’ve already transferred since last May and was just visiting Ephil every now and then. I saw that he was also surprised by what I said. Then he said that I’m always welcome to visit Ephil whenever I have the chance. He wished me well as he gave me a pat on the back. All I could say was “thank you” as I smiled at him once again.

When I entered the vacant area where the championship is being held, the QA girls were already waiting for me. Mommy Weng, being the responsible and loving mom that she is, reserved food for me (yey!) But I wasn’t able to eat yet since I went with my team mates for merienda.

I was glad to see many of my previous colleagues being awarded for their hardwork. They truly deserve those awards and I’m hoping for them to receive more of those in the coming product releases. It was also a wonderful time watching the championship matches and exhibition games. I’m proud to say that many have improved a lot in playing compared to last year’s tournament. And I think any Ephil event wouldn’t be complete now without hearing a song from Arman. He gave a beautiful version of the song “Leader of the Band” while David played the guitar (a good guitarist as well, I should say). I realized there were a lot of talented people at Ephil. It’s good to see them coming out and sharing their talents. Due to insistent public demand, Don also gave his own version of the same song (which I think is one of his favorites). It’s nice to hear him sing, too.

At around a little past 8, Mommy Weng and I accompanied Tabel to Ortigas where she would be attending a Leadership Seminar. As we were riding Tabel’s car going to Emerald Avenue, I can’t help sometimes to talk a lot about the said seminar. Mommy Weng and I already took it and we certainly enjoyed and learned a lot from it. We’re just very excited for Tabel and so sometimes we really had to hold our tongues so as not to give anymore information just to keep the element of surprise for Tabel.

At OCCI

Tabel was actually late for the seminar. But we managed to arrive at Emerald Bldg by 9pm and so she was still accommodated by the OCCI staff. And besides, she got permission from Ma’am Mimi to be late. By the way, Ma’am Mimi is one of the facilitators in the said seminar.

It felt good to be back at OCCI. There’s such a very positive atmosphere in that place. And just as always, we feel so welcome there. When Tabel was done with the registration and a little orientation, Ma’am Mimi approached us and had a little conversation with her. She’s glad that Tabel could come. Mommy Weng and I left when Tabel entered the seminar room.

At the Sebastian’s Residence

We took a cab going to Mommy Weng’s house. We were welcomed by her kid’s (Juwan, Jin and Jaira) upon entering. Mommy Weng’s mom and Daddy Joey’s dad were also there. Mommy Weng invited me to eat but I was still quite full from the pancit, barbeque and chips I ate while watching the games. And so she had dinner while I play with the kids.

Jin enjoyed telling me a story from his Toy Story book. Jai was joining us from time to time. But this little girl enjoyed standing and jumping from her small chair much more than reading the book (hehehe…) She’s very energetic. I’m surprised because she was so sweet that time. She came to me and even sat on my lap to cuddle her.

Juwan and Jai slept early but Jin still had a lot of energy. He brought his “bop-it” toy and we had so much fun playing. He’s in-charge of the “spin it” and “pull it” while I took care of the “flick it”, “twist it” and “bop it”. It was a challenging game and it was a lot more fun when played with someone like Jin. His laughter is contagious (hehehe…) and he would say “Oh, man!” everytime it’s game over. (cool kid!) We both enjoyed playing it.

It was already 11:30 p.m. and Tabel hasn’t arrived yet. Mommy Weng and I went outside their house and sat by the sidewalk to wait for Tabel. We talked about a lot of things. Hmm…I would surely miss those moments once she goes to the States. (Oh no, this is making me cry.)

Finally, Tabel arrived at exactly 12 midnight. She doesn’t look so happy when she went out of the car. Oh well, she has her reasons. But Mommy Weng and I have full confidence that the seminar would help her a lot. We just had to make sure she’ll attend the coming sessions.

We bid Mommy Weng goodnight and goodbye as we went back to the office.

Back at Ephil’s office

It’s good to see Jhie and Mayumi Figueroa (a.k.a. Shaui) once again. Hehehe…But honestly, that’s a lovely name sis! You should give that name to your future daughter. (“,) We saw them at the back of the building with Nikki, Ces, Jay, Bimbo, Nicko and Bimboy. The girls are planning to have coffee at Starbucks.

It was Auggie’s birthday celebration when we came back. They were enjoying the music and the drinks. I was feeling quite sleepy already and starving as well but still decided to stay for a while. Good thing, they ordered pizza. I had 2 slices and a soda.

When I saw Chel, I asked her if Beng was still around because I know she’ll be leaving for Singapore. Chel told me that she was there earlier, but already left at around 10 p.m. since she still needs to pack some of her stuff. Oh no, I didn’t even have the chance to say goodbye and wish her well. Hmmm…Maybe, I’ll just send her an email.

I reminded Tabel to do her assignment for their next seminar session. So we went to her area and I watched “Batman Begins” from her laptop as she worked on her assignment. It was already past 1 a.m. that’s why I was already so sleepy. After some 15 minutes of watching, I felt my eyes already wanting to close. So I told Tabel that I’ll sleep for a while and to just wake me up once she’s done with her assignment.

She woke me up at around 2 a.m. We left the office with Dennis L. and they dropped me off at my cousin’s house in Pedro Gil.

At my cousin’s house

It was almost 3 in the morning when I reached my cousin’s apartment. I realized I’m really not used to Friday night gimmiks. My eyes seem to have the Cinderella curfew. It could only be so alert upto 12 midnight (hehehe…) But really, it was an enjoyable evening for me…a nice reward for a week’s work. (“,)

Why so downcast, oh my soul?

I can see the black clouds through the glass window from where I'm seated right now (to think that it's still quite early). Somehow, this kind of weather is giving me a sad feeling. I guess it just reminds me of several reasons to be down and sad about these past few days, including today (*a lot of sighs...*). I don't know but they just pile up so fast and I feel them weighing down on me.

Sometimes, I'm hoping that once I had cried it all out then maybe...just maybe, they'd all be gone forever. As much as I wanted to express through my words how exactly I feel right now, I just couldn't find it. Maybe the words of this song could say it all...

Lately I've been winning battles left and right
But even winners can get wounded in the fight
People say that I'm amazing
Strong beyond my years
But they don't see inside of me
I'm hiding all the tears

They don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
'Cause deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child

Unafraid because His armor is the best
But even soldiers need a quiet place to rest
People say that I'm amazing
Never face retreat
But they don't see the enemies
That lay me at His feet

They don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and and cry for just a while
'Cause deep inside this armor
the warrior is a child

They don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my and look up for a smile
'Cause deep inside this armor
Deep inside this armor
Deep inside this armor
The Warrior is a Child

At the end of the day, when all is said and done...those were the only words I could say, "I'm just a child, Lord...I'm just a child. I need you to help me face all these. I can't do this alone. I just can't..."

In my heart I know, He's always there...and will always be there to lift me up whenever I'm feeling down and sad. Yes...He is the Lifter of my countenance and the Lover of my soul.

As I put my trust in Him, I look forward with hope for tomorrow is a new day...
and the sun would shine again...
and hopefully, the dark clouds would all be gone...
and the fresh wind will blow, bringing with it all the feeling of sadness away...
and as I breathe in His gentle and loving presence, I know I won't be downcast anymore
because He's given me more than enough reason
to smile and laugh again.

Kissed!

Ooopps…Before you think of anything else, I just wanted to say that this is a totally wholesome entry. (hehe…)

Around 5 p.m. this afternoon, I went out to go to the grocery store near our village to buy some things we need in the house. I also intend to look for a photocopying center where I could recopy the drawings for the Kid’s crafts tomorrow.

As I was only a few step from our gate, I noticed some children playing in the street. When Arianne saw me, she smiled and I smiled back at her. Then I just noticed this pretty 7-year old girl left her playmates and walked towards me. When she came near me, she gave me a kiss! (aaaaww…) That was so sweet of her…a sweet surprise for me.

Then suddenly, I didn’t know that Ella saw Arianne with me. And so Ella also ran towards me and gave me another sweet kiss. (aaaaaww… again) I remembered this smart 6-year old girl as one of my students in Sunday School before. I’m glad that she’s still that same sweet girl to me even if she’s studying in Baguio now and only stays in Cavite once in a while.

And when I thought I was already that blessed to receive two sweet kisses, Ella’s younger cousin, Janice also ran towards me. I didn’t notice her immediately since she was quite small. She called my name and when I turned back, there she was waiting for me to lean down so that she could give me a kiss, too. (another aaaaaww…)

This experience reminds me of those mornings on my way going to the office. There were times when I was walking on our street going to the tricycle terminal, I would just be surprised to hear cute voices shouting, “Ate Doths!” And when I looked to where the voice (or voices) came from, I’ll see that it was from these kids looking from their house’s window! Then they would just run outside, towards me and give me a sweet kiss as they bid me goodbye. Wow! I felt like I was a celebrity during those times. Hehehe!

It just feels so great to be loved by kids. Well maybe this is an understatement. Because really, words are sometimes not enough to express the feeling that you get when you receive these little but wonderful surprises from kids. Just like what my good friend usually say, “They just love you so unconditionally.” I definitely agree to that.

I thank God for the three sweet kisses I received today. They’re really wonderful blessings that just take all my stress and weariness away. I truly thank God for these kids who have touched my life and inspired me to see things beautifully.

It’s time to bed for me now since I have to wake up early tomorrow. I think my Heavenly Dad would also love to receive a sweet kiss from His little princess. Hmmm…I’d surely love to give Him that. (“,)

Friday with the Ephil Folks

Lunch at Market! Market!

I’m glad to still feel a part of the Ephil Family even if I’m already working for another company. It really wasn’t so easy for me to detach myself from the people and the environment. Probably, that’s the reason why I still spend my lunch at the Enterwork’s Pantry almost everyday. I miss Mang Rudy’s iced tea and the Nescafe coffee. (My taste buds like it better than our Starbucks coffee at OCS. Hehehe…) I guess I really can’t blame Bambie when all the while he thought I was still one of his officemates. It was only last Thursday when he knew that I wasn’t an Enterworks employee anymore. (Hehehe…) That’s okay, Bibams! (“,)

I got an invitation from Angie yesterday to join them for lunch at “Market! Market!” today – her treat for being regularized. Wow! I was so surprised and so touched that she invited me. I felt like I’m a part of the QA team once again, being there with Mommy Weng, Angie, Cynch, Joy, Cherry, Cookie, Ken, Franco and Ma’am Mimi. Tabel and Rene were also with us. Unfortunately, Brian had a lunch date so he can’t join us (hmm…hehe..).

We teased Angie that we really prepared for her treat, since we didn’t even have breakfast (haha!) She said she should’ve given the invitation 5 minutes before lunch. Too late for that. Hehehe! But seriously, all of us were already hungry by the time we get to Market! Market! Angie, Mommy Weng and Tabel ordered from Trinity our favorite Buttered Chili Crabs and Grilled Panga ng Tuna. And of course how can we forget the best barbeque from Ineng’s.

Yummy Buttered Chili Crabs!

Ineng's Barbeque (the best!)
While waiting for the food to be cooked, Cynch, Angie and I strolled around the booths that were selling different delicacies. We were able to buy some “pasalubong” at a relatively cheap price.

QA Girls posing with the barbeque =)

So Happy! Can't wait to eat! hehe...
By the time all the food was served, we didn’t waste anymore precious time. It’s chow time for all of us! Yehey!!! Our forks and spoons didn’t seem to have anymore use. We’ve got to use our bare hands as we eat the crabs. But it was really more fun and exciting that way.

Eating time!

Galit galit muna tayo... haha!

Want some?

Ken concentrating on his food =)
Needless to say, we were all so full after eating and there’s still even some food left. But I guess no matter how full we were, there’s always some space for dessert! (Hehe…) Since our table was located near Razon’s, we teased Angie that we really would love to taste their especialty – halo-halo! It was not easy for her to give in, but in the end she was forced (hehehe…) to order for us. Ma’am Mimi volunteered to pay for it when she came back after buying something, but Angie had already paid for it. =)

Enjoying Razon's Halo-halo (yum, yum!)
We all enjoyed the halo-halo, except for Rene who didn’t order one and Angie, who got some ice cream for desert.

Satisfied! (",)
Wow! It was really a great lunch. We had to walk around the mall first just to get the food to settle in our stomachs. But we’re also waiting for the rain to stop before we leave.

It was already past 2pm when we left Market! Market! I was quite worried because we might have a Project Status Meeting. Good thing, when I got back in the office, our Technical Director was busy orienting our newly hired Project Manager – and we won’t have a meeting. Yey!

I sent a YM message to Angie to thank her again for inviting me. I really had a great time being with all of them and glad to feel I’m a part of the family once again. (“,)

Table Tennis at Ephil’s Game Room

Another thing that I really miss at Ephil are the game tournaments. It was during one of those tournaments that I learned how to play Darts. It was indeed an unforgettable experience that I owe to Ephil. I didn’t join the table tennis tournament, though. I just don’t think I’m worthy enough to compete. (hehehe…) But I did enjoy watching and cheering.

Tabel invited me to pass by Ephil yesterday night to spend some time to play table tennis with them. I really wanted to, but I promised my mom I’ll go home early. So I told her I’ll just pass by tonight, anyway it’s a Friday.

I haven’t played for a long time already so when I got inside the game room, I was quite hesistant to join them at first. But I had the pleasure of playing with Nikki, Ate Ning and Ces. Good thing, Nikki is really good at playing and so we managed to win over Ate Ning and Ces who are equally good as well. It was a tight game.

I also had a game with Rene, who seemed to be practicing the techniques he got from Boyet. He found them effective...at me (hehehe…) I just don’t know if it will be effective to his future opponents as well. But at the end of our game, I was surprised that I won. (Nice!) Hmm…maybe it wasn’t his performance level yet.

Mike played with us, too. It’s me and Tabel versus Mike and Rene. It was a tight and exciting game. Mike plays so well and I like how he serves the ball…it’s quite unique. It’s also good that Tabel is my partner. At least I know we have a chance to win somehow. Hehehe… And guess what??? Would you believe that we actually won?! It was so unexpected. Hmm…Was it Beginner’s Luck? (Maybe…but I don’t believe in that. Haha!) So let’s just say it was my day.

I got home at 11 p.m. already, but I was just so grateful for all the time I’ve spent with my Ephil friends today. (“,)

Amidst all the confusion...

"I don't know..."

I KNOW this would be surest statement of someone who's in a state of much confusion and uncertainty. I guess most of us would have this for an answer if asked what could happen to our country's situation right now.

Today, I've heard this same statement uttered to me and uttered by me numerous times. I was glad to spend lunch with a good friend of mine. Though we've never been really that close, I was so touched that she gave me her trust as she shared things to me about her life.

I felt her burden...and yes, even her confusion. It's hard when you look ahead and you see only darkness and uncertainty. You wanted to be sure, but you don't know how...or maybe just afraid to take the risk of finding it out.

If only I could do something to ease her pain and confusion, I would. But sometimes there are things that only we ourselves could solve (w/ God's help, that is) and if we could only step out, stand courageously and look at our fears straight in the eye.

Just like all other afternoons, I went down to buy merienda. Out of curiousity, I tried to look at the streets of Ayala and the rally that's been going on. If I may describe the scene, it's confusing...and uncertain...but still hoping that it wouldn't be chaotic.

On my way to Mister Donut, I just noticed myself walking aimlessly with my eyes staring at what, I don't know...and my mind seemed to be floating somewhere else. I'm afraid, but I had to admit that somehow the confusion around is getting into me. Our country's condition...my friend's situation...even some aspects of my life that I still find confusing and uncertain until now.

Maybe all we need is assurance. But what if we don't find it? Then I guess all we have to do is to TRUST. Easier said than done, I know. But I think that's the only way to hold on. It's the same thing that I told my friend aside from promising to pray for her.

I'm about to go home now. I just don't know if this entry makes sense. Sorry about that, I just want to vent out my thoughts and feelings as of the moment. And though I still have that cloud of confusion hovering around me, I just choose to TRUST the One Who knows better...the One Who sees the future.

I heard Kitchie's song (Same Ground) a while ago. I don't know why the last two lines of the song made an impact to me. Maybe I just thought these lines would somehow be the questions my friend would ask. If ever I'd be the one to ask it, just like her, I'm hoping I wouldn't get the first line of this entry for an answer.

Amidst all the confusion...
though I may not see clearly...
I just believe in my heart...
that things will be just fine.

It's good to be back!

Kid’s Sunday School

After 3 months, it’s teaching time for me once again and I was just excited to see my students. I was assigned to handle the 7:30 a.m. Sunday School. As expected, there were only a few kids who attended since most of them come at the 10 a.m. service. But still, it was a great time for Sandy, Xyve, Sophia, Joshua, Teacher Elsa and meeh!

The kids w/ Teacher Elsa

The kids w/ Teacher Doths
At first, my students seemed to be so shy and quiet as we were starting. But as we go along and especially towards the end of our class, I didn’t know anymore who to give my attention to. They seem to all want to share a lot of stories to me.

Our lesson is about “Friendship”. Each of the kids excitedly shared about their close friends when I asked them if they have one and why did they consider them as friends. They really have interesting answers.

The bible story is about the kids being hindered to come to Jesus during the time when He was busy accommodating older people and their concerns. But as we know, Jesus asked the kids to come to Him, as He said “Let the children come to me.” The story ended with the children feeling so happy as they felt Jesus’ love for them.

My students seemed so glad to know that Jesus is a friend to children like them. I emphasized that they too should love Jesus and should be a true friend to others. As the teacher, I did learn something, too. It’s about being a true friend to my students also as I become a channel of God’s love to them. Indeed, there is an unexplainable joy in loving others unconditionally.

I also taught the kids a song which is related to our lesson. It’s a classic kid’s song entitled “Jesus loves me”. Just a trivia: This is the first song that I learned when I first attended Sunday School at age 7. (Hmmm..not so long time ago. hehehe!) It says:

Jesus loves me, this I know
For the Bible tells me so
Little ones to Him belong
They are weak but He is strong
Yes, Jesus loves me
The Bible tells me so…

I was glad that they learned the song and the actions easily. Then it’s crafts time for the kids afterwards. I saw how they enjoyed arranging the pictures and coloring them. How creative they are! I also asked them to memorize the verse. I said that we’ll be reviewing it again in our next meeting.

It’s snack time for them after finishing the crafts and then we closed in prayer. Hopefully, the kids enjoyed our time together as much as I did. (“,)

On to Cavite City

Changed role during the 10 a.m. service. Back-up singer this time. (Or just feeling? Hehehe…) It’s really a great priviledge to be a part of this team and I just pray that our songs would always be like a sweet-smelling aroma as we lift our voices to God.

After lunch, our Music Ministry team headed to Cavite City. We’re expected to be there by 4 p.m. As usual, Mark was the designated driver and Angeline, the guide. James, Bob, Carlyn, Mich, Olive, Elaine, Ate Lucille and meeh were the ever supportive passengers (haha!)

We also brought with us some instruments like the snare drum, bass guitar, beat box and the bamboo which has small shells inside (Sorry, I forgot what it’s called). Obviously, it’s jamming time once we get there. But we’re also expecting to do some other interesting activities.

When we first went there last month, we got lost somewhere in Imus (hehehe…). But thank Heavens, we made it perfectly this time! (We’ve learned our lesson already) I was just a little sad that I missed to take a picture of the sea view that we passed by, just before entering Cavite City proper. I really like that view. Well, hopefully I would be able to take a picture of it when we go there again next month.

We arrived right on schedule. It feels great to receive a warm welcome from our brothers and sisters there. Pastor Philip, Kuya Jun and Luvve prepared the programme for the afternoon's fellowship. We started with an opening prayer and then it's icebreaker time for us. The game is called "Inverted Charades".

The Facilitators
We're divided into two teams then we're asked to pick a representative. Our team picked me to be the representative. (uh-oh...) Oh well, I'm up to the challenge. hehehe! Bob is the representative of the other team. Our task is to guess the word being flashed by the facilitators as our team mates are giving clues by acting it out (no talking allowed).

I was first to guess the first word! 1 point for us. (yes!) My team mates were all so happy because we easily got ahead of the other group. They said I was good at guessing, but I think it's really because they were good actors and actresses. hehehe! And so, our group won with 8 points while the other group with only 2 points. Nice game! =)

Then we come into some serious matters after the fun icebreaker game. It was time to brainstorm for a name of our group. It was our Pastor's vision for our Church in Bacoor and Cavite City to merge into one group and together stage a concert that will allow us to reach people for God.

There were a lot of suggestions that came up. I also gave a suggestion. Actually, our Pastor voted for my suggestion. But after the voting made, it was Olive's suggestion that got better votes. It was a good name as well - "VOC" which stands for "Victors on Calvary". Pronounced as "vox" (meaning "voice"). Our next assignment is to create a design for our logo. Hmmm...I might also submit a design if ever I would have the time to create one. hehe...

For our next activity, Pastor Philip divided us into 3 groups - Musicians, Singers and Dancers. But instead of assigning us in each group, he allowed us to choose freely where we wanted to join. I was torn between the singing and the dance group (whew!) I love both. But then I just decided to join the dance group since there were already more people in the singing group. This will also be our permanent group for the coming concert.

The Musicians

The Singers

The Dancers (my group)
For our starting activity as a group, we were given a problem to solve. The goal was to bring out creative ideas in us. It was a challenging activity for all of us. During the time the representatives presented each of the group’s solutions, we were amazed at the creative answers. Some suggestions were even funny and others, somewhat weird. Hehehe…

After all those mind-boggling and energy-consuming activities, it’s chow time! Tita Susan prepared some delicious lumpia (w/ matching spicy vinegar. Yum, yum!) and “tahong”. It was an early dinner for all of us. We all had a great appetite after all of the activities we did. I was surprised at myself because I really do not eat “tahong” unless it’s baked. But Ate Lucille asked me to try some, and I did. And guess what? It tastes delicious! I lost count how many I ate. Hehehe… I think it’s the best “tahong” I’ve ever tasted. Perhaps it’s because they’re fresh. Pastor Archie said that the “tahong” from Cavite City are the best. I think I would have to agree to that. =)

After resting for a while, it’s another team-building activity game for us. We’re again divided into 2 groups. We were asked to form straight lines. The instruction is for the last group member to trace at the back of the person in front the picture being shown by the facilitator. The person being traced on must be sensitive enough to distinguish the figure, so that he/she could also trace it at the back of the person in front of him/her. This process continues until the front-most person receives the trace.

I thought it was just simple… I was sooo wrong. Carlyn was the last person in our group and I was next to her. She was tracing the figure at my back but she was having difficulty since she didn’t know how to draw. Waaaah! I really couldn’t figure out what she was tracing at my back. I thought it would take us forever before the first person in our group receives the trace. Good thing there was a time limit. Hehehe…

When the time was almost over, I just made a guess on what Carlyn was trying to draw, and it went on upto the first person. When the time was up, we were asked to show all our drawings. The picture to be guessed was a three-dimensional shoe box. I just couldn’t believe that our group won! The judges said that our drawings were more similar to the figure compared to the other group. Hmmm…God’s favor must have been with our group today. Hehehe!

We ended our gathering with a Praise and Worship led by Angeline, while Carlyn and I were the back-ups. It was just sooo great to be in God’s presence.

The tambourine dancers
At the end of our singing, Pastor Philip spoke and asked each of us to come to the front as our way of re-dedicating ourselves to the Lord. We did as he said and each of us was prayed for. I closed my eyes and I could only hear the musicians playing the song “One Desire”. At that time, I could already hear some sobbing around me.

Then I just felt Pastor Archie laid his hand on my head and began to pray for me. I prayed too from my heart as I just surrendered everything to God and dedicate myself and all that I have for Him. I suddenly noticed the tears flowing down my cheeks and I was already crying quite uncontrollably. It was truly an out-pouring of the Holy Spirit as each of us humbled ourselves in God’s presence.

It’s just amazing that each one of us experienced the same thing. I believe it’s God’s way of annointing us as we prepare for the concert – all for His glory.

We left Cavite City at around 8:30 p.m. already. Though quite tired, it was a marvelous experience for all of us.

Home

Now, I’m back home preparing to bed. As I contemplate on what happened throughout the day, I felt so blessed and so grateful. Indeed, it’s great to be back to teaching again in Sunday School and to visit Cavite City once more.

I just look forward with gladness to the coming days…I know that great things are going to happen soon. (“,)

Preparations...

I woke up at around 9 a.m. and I was wondering why it seems so quiet. I realized I was alone in the house. My dad had a meeting in Church, my mom went to the market and my sister didn’t go home last night since they had to cover the rally. Oh well…

I was really sorry that I can’t go to Nathan’s birthday party. I had to prepare my lesson for Kid’s Sunday School tomorrow. Yup! I was already given a teaching schedule. Yey! I only have this morning to do all the preparation since we have a Music Ministry practice in the afternoon (which could last until evening…it depends, actually).

So I just had a quick breakfast. It’s really not so appetizing when you eat alone =(. Anyway after eating, I played the Hillsong CD (Shout God’s Fame). It’s the same set of songs I’ve been listening to the whole week, even in the office. But I just don’t get tired of listening to them. They’re beautiful songs.


My top favorites are: “Shout Your Fame” (the carrier single) and “Centre of My Life” (I love the lyrics of this one). I also like “Gonna Be Alright”, “I Will Go” and “Here I am (Father’s Love). Some songs here which are also included in their previous albums are still great to listen to.

It’s cutting-out and coloring time for me as I listen to these songs. I really miss doing these things and I had fun preparing the visual aids and even the crafts that the kids will be making tomorrow.

As I was doing all these, our landline phone rang. At first I was tempted not to answer it (hehehe…) since I don’t want to be interrupted from what I was doing. But then I thought it might be something important.

It was Carlyn on the other line, and she’s looking for Elaine. I told her my sister is not yet in the house. She said it’s okay, she’ll just call again. Then suddenly, her voice began to sound so happy and excited. I was surprised when she told me that she won as Secretary for their Student Council with votes for her way, way above the others who ran for the same position. Wow! I was soooo happy for her! She was thanking me for helping her make the flyers that she used for the campaign. I never thought it could make such an impact. But we know it was all God’s doing and we really thank Him for that!

I didn’t have much time to practice my project song, though. But still I was able to practice somehow. I really think I should prepare for the recital, if ever it pushes through. Master Sherwin’s name is at stake here (hehehe!) And yes, I’ve been listening to the mp3 (“True Colors” by MYMP) in the office whenever I have the chance. I’m really hoping I could also play it that well. So I guess my motto for now would have to be: Make.Your.Maestro.Proud (hehe!)

Our Music Ministry practice took quite a long time since we included in our line-up 2 new songs from the album I mentioned earlier. We finished at around 8 p.m. already. But then, it’s still worth the time spent. We all wanted to give our best for our One True Audience.

Yes, today is basically my preparation day for all my upcoming activities. It just feels good to have a very productive day! (“,)

Sleepy Friday Afternoon

Zzzzz...

I don't know why I feel so sleepy today. Hmmm... It could be because I got home at 11:30 p.m. already last night since we played badminton (after 3 weeks of being deprived from it. hehehe...) But still, I was able to sleep for about 6 hours.

Another reason could be, I didn't have coffee this morning. I got here in the office at around 8:15 a.m. and I bought "taho" for breakfast. Yummy!

Or was it because I had a sumptuous lunch? Hmm... Thanks Mikko for that! I'm sure the PICO team really enjoyed it. We're sad to lose a very good and kind project manager. No more free cookies and donuts during Status Meetings. huhuhu... But seriously, I'm happy for you, Mikks! Hope you'll enjoy working in Singapore. =)

After lunch, I couldn't seem to concentrate in my work anymore. I was doing my best not to doze off but I could feel my eyes wanting to close. Whew! I really lost count how many times I left my desk to just walk around or go to the wash room just to keep myself awake.

When my officemate announced that there was a rally, I looked from our glass window overlooking Ayala. Indeed, I saw some people already walking along the street. I wonder what could happen to our country. Hmmm... I guess we just have to pray and trust God to intervene in all these.

At around 4:30 p.m. I decided to go to Mister Donut to buy donuts and of course, coffee! (Yey! finally! hehehe...)

I felt a little awake now and my day is almost over. I was just feeling a little sad that I wasn't able to finish some tasks I targeted to finish. But come to think of it, I did accomplish most of the things in my checklist. So I guess that's alright for now. I don't want to be so hard on myself. hehehe... Besides, there's still another week for me to do as much as I can.

Thank God it's weekend again! Yey! I'm really looking forward to it. Hopefully, I could go to Nathan's birthday party at Storyland tomorrow morning. Then it's Music Ministry practice in the afternoon. I also hope to practice my project song for our guitar lessons. I was having a hard time when I first attempted to play it. But as I go along, I think I'm improving somehow. Thanks for master Sherwin's tips. hehehe... Indeed, practice makes perfect!

Then come Sunday, off we go to our Church in Cavite City. It's good that we would have a regular visit there every second Sunday of the month. I'm excited to see again my new friends there. It's probably more icebreaker games and jamming time for all of us.

Until next week... Have a great weekend everyone! (",)

Every good and perfect gift

I welcomed the morning earlier than usual. I was still feeling sleepy at 5 am but I know I had to get up already since I have a back-up singing schedule for our 7:30 am service. Our call time is at 6:30 am, just to have a final run through of the songs.

I arrived in Church at around that time only to find out that I was the only one there. Hmm…I was wondering where they are. Apparently, they were late. (hehe…) Finally, one by one, they arrived after a few minutes and we’re still able to practice.

It was a wonderful service. I learned a lot from Pastor Archie’s preaching. I liked how he delivered the message in a very interesting way. He entitled his message, “Real Treasures from God” from 1 Peter 4:10-11. It was actually about “gifts”. I just wanted to share some points that I learned:

• Gift is defined as the act of bestowing something (favor/item) without expecting anything in return. (Hmm… and all the while I thought the gift is the favor or item itself. Apparently, I was wrong. It was the act.)
  
  
• God is the giver of every good and perfect gift. (Our Salvation, all the necessities of life, our abilities to work, the Holy Spirit, and His One and Only Son – Jesus)
  
  
• God has given us all these gifts and more but He doesn’t expect anything in return.
  
  
• It is but natural for us to give something back to God in return.
  
  
• But God already owns everything that we can see around us, even our very lives. So what else can we give?
  
  
• The answer: Through serving others using the gifts and talents He has bestowed upon us. In this way, we give pleasure and glory to God.

It’s quite challenge but I pray that I could really apply this very important message in my daily life.

After lunch at home, I got a call from Carlyn asking me for help. She’s a junior high school student who’s running as Secretary in their school’s Student Council. She needs to make flyers for the campaign this week. I told her to just drop by our house and we’ll do the layout in my computer. She was so happy to hear my suggestion.

We created a simple layout and Carlyn liked the background clipart I placed as well as the quotation. It took us a while to get a quotation. Thanks to the Daily Bread on my computer table. We got something which speaks about leadership. It says, “The only leaders qualified to lead are those who have learned to follow.” Carlyn decided to use the quotation. I also think it fits her. I’ve known her to be an obedient daughter which made me think that she’ll also become a good leader. I’m sure she’ll be able to use the gifts and talents God has given her to serve her fellow students.

It was almost 4pm when we finished the flyers. We were both in a hurry because our Music Ministry group has scheduled an outdoor fellowship at Circle Island, a newly-opened resort which is very near our village. Our meeting time was at 4pm. But I got there at 5pm already. (hehehe…) I think that’s quite understandable. I have a very reasonable excuse. My sister was already there. Carlyn arrived at almost 6pm already. But that’s okay. It’s really supposed to be a night swimming anyway.

It was not really a big resort, but it’s a lovely place. I decided to walk around to take some pictures as we were waiting for the others.


I like this view =)

The pool

The pavilions

By height...hehe!

Wala lang! hehe...

It was a great time to just bond together…to have fun and laugh our hearts out. It was already quite dark when we tried the pool. But it was lighted beautifully and it looked even more inviting. The water was also sooo relaxing!

It’s a blessing to have Pastor Archie and his wife Tita Susan around. Also with us are Carlyn’s parents, Tito Sandy and Tita Luz. They’ve prepared a very hearty meal for all of us. Yummy! Thank God for parents! (“,)

Pastor Archie and Tita Susan preparing dinner (w/ Bob on the side)

What a pose! =)

Feeling macho! haha!

If only it wasn’t Monday tomorrow, we’ve surely stayed longer. But then, we could always go back. Anyway, the place is just a couple of minutes away.

When my sister and I got home, I can’t sleep yet since my hair was still wet. So I just spent some time watching TV first while drying my hair. My sister flipped the remote control to ABC 5 and I was glad she did. They we’re showing Christian Bautista’s concert. Yey! I was happy to hear and see him perform once again.

Before I sleep, I just thanked God for the opportunity He has given me to make use of my gifts to help others. I also thanked Him for the wonderful gifts He has bestowed upon us throughout the day – the lessons from the preaching and the wonderful time we had at Circle Island. What more could I say? He’s really a generous Dad. (“,)

Birthday Party at Mc Donalds

I got an invitation from my previous officemate, Dennis L. last week for the 1st birthday of his son. Good thing, it will be held at Mc Donalds Festival Mall, Alabang. I promised him I’ll be coming, anyway the venue is quite near, just a 15-minute shuttle ride from our place.

I left the house at around 11:30 this morning even if the party is supposed to start at 1:30pm. I haven’t bought a gift yet so I decided to go to Festival Mall earlier. Unfortunately, it took some time before the shuttle left. So it was already 12:30 pm when I arrived at the mall.

I think I entered every kid’s store on the 3rd floor looking for a nice gift. But it seems I can’t find one. Well, I think I just find it easier to buy a gift for a girl (hehehe…). As I was glancing at the store windows, I happened to see Rafael, my classmate in highschool. I was surprised when he called my name. I think it’s been a decade since I last saw him. We didn’t have much time to chat since I was in a hurry. But I’m glad to see him again, and to see him truly happy. By the way, he’s with his girlfriend. Too bad, I forgot her name (Sorry, I’m really worse at remembering names….*sigh*). But she looks so kind and pretty, too. I wished them well as I bid goodbye.

Well just to cut my story short, after an hour of searching I finally spotted a nice Mickey Mouse toy. I hurried down the hall ways and escalators on my way to Mc Donalds. When I arrived there, I looked around and it seems I can’t see any familiar face. Dennis noticed me and ushered me to occupy a table. Tabel arrived in a few minutes. It took a while before Angie, Joel (her husband) and their little Gelo to arrive. Gelo was not in a good mood that time because he wanted to play at Pixie Forest. Fortunately, he stopped crying and just settled for the Playplace at the meantime. Joey and the ever adorable Nathan (his son) arrived shortly. Joey’s wife, Bess came as we were having our meal.

The little birthday boy, John Matthew (I like his name (“,) - a.k.a “Jhom”) doesn’t seem to be aware what’s going on yet. But I think he’s surely enjoying his party as the rest of the kids were also enjoying the games. Even their parents had fun. I also had fun watching all of them. They reminded me of my students in Sunday School. I miss teaching already becauseI haven’t been assigned to teach again since last March.

The party ended at almost 4 pm, with a short "thank you" speech from none other than the proud and handsome dad himself (You have to pay me for this, Dennis. hehehe...). It was great to be in a kid’s birthday party once again and to just feel like one of them again.

I went straight to church even if I was already late for the Music Ministry practice. Good thing, I was still able to practice my part. As we’re about to go home at around 7:30 pm, Angeline handed me a Hillsongs CD, entitled "Shout God's Fame" (Hillsong London). I was so happy to have a copy it because I really wanted to get one. I like most of the songs in it even during the first time I heard the album. Angeline told me to study the songs from it since we will be including some of those for our future line-ups. I’d definitely love that! (",)